Who am I?

(credits to Sense of Touch - a boutique spa - Arbuthnot for the flowers)

"I am a flower quickly fading,

here today
and gone tomorrow" 

Quote from the song
Who am I by The Casting Crowns

Please accept my apologies for my lack of presence in blogging but I seem to catch myself staring at a blank page with nothing in perspective and it is very unlike me to be that way. I write not for the sake of ranting about ONLY my day, what goes wrong or what's the latest trend (although at times I might) but I write mostly because I want to inspire people with what inspires me.
             I don't usually take things literal but today I want to write about Who I Am in relation to the song that features my blog. 'Who Am I' is a famous Christian song by The Casting Crowns. If you haven't already heard it then by all means do because I'm telling you, it's a BEAUTIFUL song. (Click here to listen to the song).

WHO AM I? (My little self-reflection) Please scroll down to see.. sorry the format's a bit messed up, I can't seem to make it right.

• I am an OBSERVER in life. I take an incredible amount of time and thought to examine the world around me -- the learning never stops. In a modern era like mine, it is rare to find the time to observe silence in which I came to discover a new world filled with countless profound and remarkable knowledge. Busy is a word excessively used by people but to me, I can never be too busy to chase after wisdom and good judgement. It is through being observant that I found inner-peace and the secrets that lie behind living a steadfast life. It is beyond amazing.
  
  
  
• I am NOT a soldier, I am a WARRIOR who lies in a battlefield to fight darkness. I once had a dream about people hunting me down and asking whether or not I believed in God. Being a believer only means that they would crucify me on a cross the same way Christ died but If I denied God, they would spare my life. I was petrified BUT I must admit, I was tempted to save myself but aside of my fear, I was more afraid to deny Him. I can never. I owe my life to Him so whatever the consequence - let it be, I will endure. I ended up being crucified and nailed to the cross, a dream can never feel any more real than this. I felt everything, the hammering, the nail, the penetration in my skin. But I felt the greatest accomplishment that I have ever felt in my life. Who would have ever thought that sacrificing yourself for the sake of something BIGGER than the universe would be such a glorious feeling?.
  
  
  
• I am a person of GRATITUDE. I have found this aspect of myself in one of my classes in college. It has always been one of my Top 3 result in all the character tests I took (though I am not sure if it's exactly accurate, haha, just kidding). I realized that saying thank you and appreciating someone no matter how little the things they do, does them more favor than it does to yourself. A single smile in return with 'you're welcome' does brighten up many lives per day as they carry their smiles everywhere. Yawning isn't the only one that's contagious, afterall. :) so what are you waiting for? SMILE AWAY!, no matter how freaky and stalker-ish you look =] 
  
  

•  Lastly, I am a CHILD OF GOD, perfectly crafted by His loving hands. I am beautiful just like everybody else who manifests His glory. Willing, I am to mold myself into a figure he wants because when all else fails no matter how sturdy the road or how dark the night, I will endure and I will prosper because I genuinely believe.
  
  
  PS: I believe there are many attributes that a person has. The list can go on forever but I do not want to bore you all by talking about mine so, share your traits.... Who are you? ;)

Jesus take the wheel

 (found this photo somewhere in flickr)

It has been quite a journey my friend, the roads I have taken are not exactly people's ideal path to trace but whose lives are perfect? If given a choice, my own footprints would have marked the kind of life I would have wanted to live.

I am starting to love everyone around me at a whole new different level. I see so much greatness in this world. I wake up every morning in awe of the sun. Over my right shoulder here is a view of a very green mountain and I sit here today in front of my laptop being stuck at home feeling like it's the BEST DAY OF MY LIFE.

I guess when you let GOD take over the wheel, he DRIVES you completely insane. :)

like a submarine, my heart sank...

R.I.P - To my beautiful friend Ana Presto & her husband Derek who went through a very tragic accident yesterday afternoon during their vacation in North Devon, UK.



(see news article here: http://www.thisisnorthdevon.co.uk/news/killed-A361-car-crash/article-2332414-detail/article.html)

Upon hearing this news, my heart sank. I am not close with her but we have shared a few moments together and it has made all the difference; she has already stolen my heart. I am still in disbelief but it helps to know that they are in a better place. I pray that both their families receive healing upon losing a loved one especially at this time. I miss you sis, what happened to our plan in working at the spa together? =(

                      
Wherever you may be up there, just know that your stay here has truly been a wonderful blessing to the people whose lives you have touched. Your sudden departure has shocked and saddened many.

We love and miss you. We will keep you in our prayers. 

YOUNG AT HEART

I am not even in my 20's yet but last night I was out in a Thai Malaysian cuisine dinner in Lan Kwai Fong with three people.

One was in her 50's.
One was in her late 40's.
One was in her late 30's.

.....and me? I'm only 19 hanging out with an ancient group of people who are obviously out of my age range.

WHACK!
- I know but let me tell you something that you DO NOT already know.


Realization #01 - Although I was hanging out with people who's even older than my dad or mom (oh-em-gee!) I realized one thing, it's not so bad. They may seem like the type you would never imagine yourself hanging around with but I realized we're not that far off. We can still relate to past experiences and this may sound cliche but these people will never grow old, they are always young at heart. (I know you oldies reading this might be all "AMEN" to that statement yea? that is if any of you are actually stalking my blogs *winks*). Let me repeat, no matter what age people are in, they will always be YOUNG AT HEART and I cannot be more convinced than I already am.

Realization #02 - It's either it's really true that they are YOUNG AT HEART or I am just getting OLD! >.<

Realization #03 - I think I would go for Realization #01. =D AHA!


PS: Sorry about the lack of creavity on the picture up there, I don't have photoshop with me right now.

Your rod & your staff, they comfort me.

Whenever I do something that draws me back from God, perhaps a silly act or you name it, I keep reminding myself about how GREAT and AWESOME he is and that he deserves nothing but the BEST from me. So, I put those silly thoughts away and try to rekindle my way back to him. The saddest part of it is the fact that mistakes are inevitable but I know that we are able to make it. Challenging indeed but it's POSIBBLE. We have the capability of choosing good against evil, we can soar up high and leave the world below us, we can convert this sinful world into a world that praises his name. Our generation can and will rise! All we need is a little more faith to walk that extra mile.

"Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil for YOU are with me."

Jozelle Ann Vargas Gabriel.

What easter means to me

Once again, it is that time of the year where we reflect upon what God himself sacrificed for our sake. While searching around the internet, I stumble upon this beautiful piece written by a girl whom I believe is called Wendi. Just thought I'd share.

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Trying to summarize what Easter means to me seems a bit like trying to harness the ocean. What we celebrate at Easter has every thing to do with who I am and the building blocks of the single most important event that my faith is based upon.



So, I will step away from the daunting intimidation that I first faced when I considered writing this.

I don't have to try to outline the Christian faith, or wax eloquent in the numerous reasons for Christ's selfless act of dying for our sins.


This is simply going to be my heart. Why do I feel deeply moved this time of year? What personalizes it for this one child of God?


This year it is because I am humbled and amazed that one such as I can enter into a personal relationship with God himself. I - the girl who struggles with so many things that grieve His heart - have been given a position of honor in His family.


I don't have to go through a high priest, or any body, to get to Him.


He who is sinless.


He who created every thing beautiful and good that we experience.


He who loves perfectly and with out condemnation.


He.


The lover of my soul.


The one I will some day see face to face.


And all I will be able to do is fall to my face and cry "holy, holy, holy!"


This is the one I have the privilege of approaching with no fear. Only great awe and reverence. He cares about every thing in my life. He loves it when I speak with Him. When I pour my heart out to Him, and leave my worries with him.


He made this possible through his terrible suffering, and death. An eternity together awaits us because of his resurrection.


This is why my heart rejoices, my eyes mist over, and my smile is brighter than usual this time of year. I am reflecting on something that is hard to believe, but I know with out a doubt to be true.

So with out hesitation I will approach him. I will talk to him. And I will thank him for making a way for this to happen.